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It’s song dedication time

Whenever we have something beautiful, we share.

Vin and I dedicate songs to each other quite frequently, and since I have never dedicated a song for her on my blog, I thought that it would be a nice time now to dedicated her one of my fav songs of the moment.

P.s.When you are in love, it seems that everything is just made for you.

This song is called “ZaraSa” from the movie Janaat.

Since, a lot of you don’t understand Hindi and also as I have too much free time, I am translating the lyrics to English too.

You can hear it at the background as I have added it for autoplay on the blog.

zara si dil mein de jagaah tu…
(Give me a little place in your heart)
zara sa apna le banaa…
(Make me a little yours)
zara sa khaabon mein sajaa tu…
(Put me a little in your dreams)
zara sa yaadon mein basaa…
(Put me a little in your thoughts)
main chaahun tujhko meri jaan bepanaah
(I love you more than anything in this world)
fidaa hoon tujhpe meri jaan bepanaah
(I am crazy about you my love)

wo-o-o … o-o-o…..

zara si dil mein de jagaah tu…
zara sa apna le banaa…
zara sa khaabon mein sajaa tu…
zara sa yaadon mein basaa…

main tere, main tere
kadmon mein rakh dun yeh jahaan
(I will place the world at your feet)
mera ishq dewaangi…
(for the sake of my love)

hai nahi, hai nahi
aashiq koi mujhsa tera
(There is no one else who will love you as much as I do)
tu mere liye bandagi
(You are my prayer)
main chaahun tujhko meri jaan bepanaah
(I love you more than anything in this world)
fidaa hoon tujhpe meri jaan bepanaah
(I am crazy about you my love)

wo-o-o … o-o-o…..

zara si dil mein de jagaah tu…
zara sa apna le banaa…
zara sa khaabon mein sajaa tu…
zara sa yaadon mein basaa…

kehe bhi de, kehe bhi de
dil mein tere jo hai chhupaa
(Tell everyone who is in your heart)
khwaahish hai jo teri
(The one you wish to have in your life)

rakh nahi, rakh nahi
parda koi mujhse eh jaan
(Don’t keep anything hidden from me)
karle tu mera yakeen
(Have trust in me)
main chaahun tujhko meri jaan bepanaah
(I love you more than anything in this world)
fidaa hoon tujhpe meri jaan bepanaah
(I am crazy about you my love)

wo-ho… o-o-o-o…

wo-o-o … o-o-o…

Taking control of my life

Yup, I do tend to write a lot of these.

This blog is like a mirror where it is more about making myself understand than writing on an interesting topic.

The realization just creped in, I am wasting my life as I don’t seem to be focusing on the things that I can do. Professionally I am growing, but beyond that my life is just a drab.

Off lately I am not the kind of person that I used to be, I have stopped thinking beyond work and as a result I have become a secluded and a very sensitive person.

Simple things like receiving call, writing e-mail, housework, exercising have taken a toll and I have become very casual about things in life. I am loosing control.

To be successful, it is not necessary that you make the most money or for that matter just restrict yourself to a particular thing but it’s more about being an allrounder.

When I wake up tomorrow morning, I will not give anyone a chance to complain.

This is my time and it is very important that I have control over it.

My tools:

1. Prioritize

2. Time management

3. Curb procastination

4. Make an effort to be responsive to people

5. Spend more time with GOD

So it’s time to get back the control.

The choice that we make

Things have been on the decline for me for sometime now.

Not at a professional front, but  on the personal and at the emotional front. Well I never knew that I put a lot of heart in my decisions until now.

But, as I hit an all time low I understood that I have to get stronger on the  emotional front too. My problem is that off lately I have been plagued by negative thoughts which have made me very depressing and at the same time I am more insecure than ever.

No idea seems perfect, all the things I believed in were so fictitious all of a sudden.

It’s all about the choices that we make and the hope that we have.

Frankly I have never been certain about my future but it has always been hope that has seen me through and given me the determination to make my dreams a reality.

The choices in life are very simple. Either you want to feel bad about the spilt milk and worry about it or you can move on and give yourself a second chance.

These are universal truths of life, but realizing how these simple decision are the hardest to make is what makes it worth pondering about.

I have realized it but how far I will be able to  actually implement it, only time will tell.

But remember that for each time we decide to move on, always learn a lesson as without that it is pointless.

Life is indeed all about the choice that we make.

Starting on a dream project

This is what I had wanted for a long time now. I enjoy my work but it gets pretty boring not to have anyone to confide to and share my ideas.

So I guess this was the best time for Vin to finally decided to work on a collaborative project with me.

She is the only person I am comfortable sharing my ideas with and also with the kind of dedication that she show in term of creative thinking and manual work just puts me a lot at ease.

At the moment we have not decided what exactly we would be creating, but as this is going to begin as an online project, I was contemplating to start a network of sites in the entertainment niche.

She has her own commitments at the moment but has promised some time to work with me. We might be already partners in everything that we do, but as a guy I do appreciate her effort to share and partner with me in work.

This is just the beginning as I am determined to do well in her partnership as it’s a big confidence booster to have her sharing idea and working with me.

And well she is the only one in the whole world who can kick my lazy ass. ;-)

This is definitely my dream project and looking forward to make it a big success.

Quitting the easy way out

There are times when you just have to grow up and take responsibility. This is that time for me.

I have always been looking for the easy way out, thats pretty human but somewhere down it doesn’t feel right.

But the question is that why would I feel like this all of a sudden.

Well the thing is that my pet rabbit got sick and the only option was to either amputee his leg and bear the hassle or put him to sleep.

Just for a few seconds I wanted to go with the former option as the thought of actually taking responsibility of a handicap pet scared me.

Thats being me!

But the very next instant I did realize that there was no easy way out for this one, and  I decided to actually be responsible for something for the first time in my life.

The good news is that I am feeling great about my decision and the feeling of satisfaction overwhelms  any kinds of extra effort that I have to put in.

Whiskers had his surgery yesterday and he is recovering pretty well. (Will have some pictures up by next week)

At the moment he hates me as I guess he doesn’t realize why putting him in pain was important.

But no matter what I learnt my lesson and I guess it’s going to be the more responsible me for here on.

So I call it quits on my easy way out !

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